New Day...New Start..♥

Today is a new day and a new Start!! I have sooo much Joy in my heart...and im taking pride in what i do now...Im glad i finally let the { NEGATIVE } people out and let the { POSITIVE } people in...My heart was too hard before to see that the negativity was just making me feel worse than what i already felt...I love my life..I ♥ my family and friends ( the very few i have ) Im ready to make this transition into a better life down a more glorious road....a NEW DAY...NEW START if you aint with it...then GET LOST kicking rockz ♥ More to come....

Everything Happens for a { Reason } ♥

My thoughts for the last blog were scattered everywhere. Im new to this blog stuff but i will get used to it. Everything happens for a reason.....why? Because in order for us to experience Joy we HAVE to experience pain..you will appreciate things in life WAY MORE. I think everyone can witness to that. Throughout these 5 years i have been in Houston i have encountered alot of things that have changed me for the better. To start off...i have met alot of PEOPLE some good and some bad...but the bad ones made me see that not everyone is perfect....thats an instinct that we should all kno actually...I was in a relationship with a guy that I really LIKED and still do somewhat...but i know that we are not meant to be. Word to the wise : " Wait for the guy that will do ANYTHING to be your EVERYTHING...so since january 2006 i have been single...sometimes i hate it...but now i realize its actually better for now since im in school someone will come along :) i hope really soon lol In my last blog when i was talking about my family i said ... ummm i love my family...well i shouldnt have said ummmm.....so let me rephrase that : " I love my Family " Even though my mother and I do not get along I love her to death. I thank her for having me and putting me through all the stress, I thank her for all the bad things she did to me, because she made me realize the true happiness of my life ♥ So just doesnt know that she did me a HUGE favor for sending me to Houston to live here in May 2004.. She believes that she Hurt me, but she actually made me happy by doing that ♥ My Father,My StepMommy, My Bro and Sis, and all my extended fam and I love them Dearly!!! Without them I dont know where i would be...My mother's Biological Sister Found me out here in Houston..I calls her Aunt Sherryl and I have a Big Cuz named Chris I love them very much!!! Even though Ive never met them. I remember Chris had told me that " Our mama's story should be on Lifetime" thats how deep it is...I try to do the right thing...Im not perfect but im striving for it...thats why im imperfect....I thank God for allowing me to stay on this Earth and I WILL not leave until I complete my mission....GOD has equipped me with every tool and talent that I need to Succeed...I am prosporus...I am healed and sound of mind and very stable in my emotions...I leave you today by saying...No matter what your going through just always have this thought in the back of your Memory Stick..." Everything happens for a Reason" Believe that!!

Walking Into A New { Season }

Well this is my year of {Change } I am trying to better than I was before. I come off as a shy, quiet individual, but people do not really know what im dealing with emotionally. I try and hide my feelings and try not to show that im hiding them. I feel sometimes I wish i had someone that I could talk too like a { Best Friend } than i could share my deepest darkest secrets with...I have awesome friends that i can count on one hand......but i love them dearly. Family...ummm i love my family to death...but i still isolate myself ALOT from my family out here in Houston..and my father hates that but i cant help it because I have been isolated all my life and my mother always kept me from everyone but my grandparents; my grandparents were the ones who pratically raised me and taught me things my mother didnt do that...i literally just felt like i was living with her just "because". That may sound bad but I have came through alot these past 5 years...Im glad GOD brought me through alot of the trials and tribulations because it made me into a stronger person today. to be continued......